Surrender Again

By: Adrian Pantonial

Walrus Skull-Bristol Bay: Michael Melford Photo

 

I cast to You all my lingering hurts knowing You alone can heal me completely even though it may take some time. I will surrender them to You time and again.

I cast to You all my frail hopes trusting You alone can make some sense out of all the mess in my life and turn them all around for my good and Your glory.

You have the biggest hands in the world yet You don’t give me everything because You know I don’t need everything no matter how badly I want them.

You have the biggest heart in the world yet You let me suffer way longer than I believe I can bear because You trust me more than I trust myself.

And though endless times You heard me quit and wanted to give up everything out of exhaustion and brokenness for loves that just won’t suffice…

You never quit on me

and You keep giving me enough inspiration

and hope

and yet another day

out of Your unfathomable,

indefatigable,

unconditional love

for me.

 

And so here I am again, Father God,

hurting again,

helpless again…

yet I surrender to You again.